I know I know, ask people whom you can actually meet face to face right. Perhaps it's because I can't see you guys that this is easier. And I value your advice. So try to picture yourself in the situation I'm about to describe if you will.
It's work-related. I have a great job, but something happened the last 2 weeks. Our department is two cubicles with 4 people in each cubicle. One dude in the other cubicle, with whom I'm ironically enough carpooling each day, and is generally quite ok, has been in our cubicle a number of days now for several hours because he's working on a project with a dude from my cubicle.
Still following? Great.
Now, this fella from the other cubicle, the source of my torment, keeps provoking me again and again during work by altering the song that's currently on the radio and inserting my name into it at several intervals, or cracking jokes about my sexual orientation in front of everyone else. I'm single, and choosing not to have a relationship for the moment, but this is the sort of fella who thinks you're a homosexual when you're a single man or at least thinks it's quite allright to keep making jokes about that. Now, please understand, I'm not opposed to some on-the-job teasing, but it's the repetitive nature and that he has without a doubt singled me out from everyone else that makes this whole thing extremely exhausting and unpleasant. Now, usually he's in his own cubicle which makes things a lot more bearable, but does it matter?
Something's broken inside me. I didn't go to work on friday and feigned an illness. I'm 40 years old, have 15 years of experience, love my work, see myself retiring there, and I'm being fucking harassed by a 24-year old infant. One more thing, this guy he doesn't slow down. You tell him you're getting angered and that's what he wants to hear, he doesn't slow down and he'll continue. The other guys in the cubicle are hearing this too, but they're not acting. One of them is actually our manager of the entire department, but he doesn't act either. Probably thinking it's just some banter between colleagues although I detect his ennui sometimes too. It gets better. Two weeks ago he told me someone in his cubicle was doing the same to him and that he didn't like that. Once or twice sure, but that it got annoying really fast if the other guy kept continuing. So that means he gets how annoying that can be when you're singled out by another. Why does he think it's ok then to do the same to me? I have literally done nothing wrong to him.
I repeat, I can take a joke from time to time, but at this point I have to assume he's decided he needed a punching bag and for that person to be me. I don't understand why he thinks this is all ok? Is he unaware he's doing any harm? He's a soccer player so this sort of infantile, puerile behaviour is probably par for the course for those fellas. This is a company though and I've got about 25 years to go. There are no issues in terms of work itself, we strangely enough work well together, but I also admit that that's me. Work takes priority over everything else, I don't want to be the guy who fucks things up because then he's got even more leverage over me.
There are times when I feel close to exploding, stand up to him, but what good will that do? I'm not looking to get fired, I don't want to debase myself down to his game. I'm respected and appreciated by everyone in the company and so I incur all this shit, I soak it up like a sponge. And he's aware of that, he's aware he's got the upper hand. Which is why this shit continues.
Do you understand? Is this harassment? Considering I feel terrible and on edge at work, I would have to say "YES!". I mean, none of the things he says are really vile, but it just keeps going on and on and on and never to the other guys. It's literally always me and it's the repetitive nature that makes it so exhausting, so frustrating. At this point he knows he's frustrating me and that's what bothers me the most. That he's not backing down.
I'm incredibly close to speaking to Top Management about this, but have not yet pulled the proverbial trigger. They have always been very open, very inviting about speaking about whatever issues were clouding one's mind so I know I'll have their attention. And I think they think highly of me as an employee and as a human being so that helps.
What good will that do however? I know the other guy will probably not get fired, his work is good also, so what kind of solution is in store? If I arrived at work on monday and I heard that he was gone, I'd be satisfied, relieved, but I don't think that will happen. Nor will I embellish to get him fired, that's just not who I am. You know, he would probably think I was a wuss who went crying to his mummy if he were to find out I ratted him out. He just doesn't seem mature enough to be able to handle that. And chances are things in our department will never be the same. He might even find more clandestine ways of getting me riled up. Although that's conjecture. Which I shouldn't do.
I'm going to work on monday and not looking forward to it. And that tears me up inside because this is my bread and butter we're talking about. He'll be in his own cubicle again since the project with the other fella was, God-willing, concluded so that helps, but as I said, some serious damage has been done and right now I consider working with him extremely unpleasant. In fact, I do not consider him a particularly fine example of a human being.
What would you do?
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