I'm so sorry about how you're feeling TGM. I have known a few people who have pursued careers out of hobbies and have ended up hating that activity because of it.
A lifelong friend of mine is an animator for a Disney subsidiary, and he frequently talks about how he both loves and hates his job. He says the turn-around in studios is surprisingly high, as people who "like to draw" get into the field and quickly find that (for them) it was better left as a hobby rather than their sole means of income.
I don't know that I have any profound advice to give you other than what you have probably thought yourself or been told a million times - step back from this all, take time to remember why you did it in the first place, and try to return to that being the reason for doing it. Do it for yourself and your own fun and gratification, not for others.
Again, I'm sorry for all the stresses you are going through right now. I wish you the best.